There is a proven direct correlation between people of exceptional intelligence and who are highly educated (Ph.D level) and atheism. There is also a correlation between stupidity nad low levels of education and belief in gods.
As I was a fundamentalist Christian for 10 years, spent time converting to Judaism and was highly respected for my knowledge, etc. and as I believed the bullshit you are dishing you for 45 years, I think I have solid grounds to stand on. I know your side of the grand delusion. You don't know mine.
Your experience is just a delusion.
Do you know that the American Psychological Association classify belief in god as a mental illness?
https://www.indiatoday.in/world/story/belief-in-god-mental-illness-283376-2015-07-20#: