Perhaps, you should write this is a story on your own stream. Curt, nobody is going to read it. Too long, and too convoluted.

I do not believe for one minute that good or evil has to do with our emotions. All emotions are secondary to thought. The thought is father to the emotion. Good and evil have nothing to do with how we feel. Good and evil has everything to do with the actions we inflict on others and whether it causes harm or not.

As a stoic, I pay no attention to my personal emotional pain or pleasure. it is irrelevant to what is right or wrong.

As for evaluating emotional pain, coming from Africa, that is a laugh. Only someone who has grown up with so little actual physical pain would think that is important. Once you have had to battle with starvation, terminal illness, rape, murder, war, and life and death struggles, it becomes the height of privilege to think that one's personal emotions are that important.