Oh, Ididn't want anything. I just wanted to read all day and go out on dates and go to balls. Very upper crust my teenage age years.

By doing what I wanted to do, I meant going to the kitchen and getting a glass of water, etc.

I was at an all girls chuch boarding school. There were 13 girls in my entire year. I did not meet anyone else for the next 5 years.

My father and mother selected what subjects I did, what clothes I wore, etc.

I had never heard of college before my last semester of school. I didn't realize one was supposed to work for a living. Ithought the oy careers there were were nurse, doctor, policeman, fireman. I thouggt all doctor were all grey haired old men.

A counsellor told me in my 50s that I had grown up like a wolf child - with no human contact.

I was 21 when I realized I had to say hello to people, 25 when I realizedI had to say please or thank you, 45 when I realized people lied, and 46 when I realized men asked me out because they were interested in me.

I was 56 years old when I felt happiness the first time, and 62 when I realized that people spoke to each other in order to bond - not to share vital information. I was 66 when I realized people were self interested and looking solely for their own needs and happinesd. And that's when everything well into place.

All the confusion that had dogged me for a lifetime finally disappeared. People made sense.

That lack of confidence is a direct result od self-involvement in a very deep place. When one has no fear for self, there is no lack of confidence.