https://medium.com/humans-being-humane/how-i-overcame-42-years-of-chronic-abuse-84dcd4885ed6

No, I never had a family who loved me. Yes, I was ostracized, mocked, belittled, beaten up etc. for a lifetime. On a daily basis.

I was told by two therapists in the USA that people who had my level of disability and my level of abuse do not survive beyond the age of 25 - and that what I did was nothing short of a miracle, and that they had learnt a lot from me.

My own beliefs had nothing to do with it. When one is autistic and suffered the effects of extreme abuse, plus had not a single person to explain to you how relationships work, and you've never been in the presence of a relationship, one gets it wrong.

I thought the purpose of a date was to get married. I used to ask the men to marry me on the first date. I never saw them again.

I fully understand the reasons. Now everybody can go get fucked. I do not appreciate men who will sleep with you because you are a beautiful woman and then disappear the next day because they didn't like you in the first place.