Do you have any idea how many lives have been destroyed by religion? What they did to me was worse than what my mother did to me. I don't have a spiritual journey. I don't think there is any such thing as spirituality. Do you know that belief in God is a delusion?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Religion_and_schizophrenia
There's a lot written about it, including that it's a mental illness.
I suggest that you believe in God because you would come undone if you didn't. Your experiences have been so lonely and terrible that if you didn't have something you wouldn't survive. So you kid yourself that there is someone invisible up there who actually cares about you.
I have the strength to live with knowing that nobody cares. Well, actually, over the last 10 years, many people have come into my life. So that's not true anymore.
